Mind Control

I guess I had a good control over my mind until this happened,if you know what I mean.Of course one of the obsessions that is almost beyond control.Don't know whether we should call that love or something else but 'that' thing is screwing me a lot these days.I've lost control on my mind and doing all things to try taking control on myself but it is getting hard.So what I've thought is to just let it go.I read somewhere that you must just let go something you really like.If it is yours it will surely come to you or else it never was.But actions are harder than words.
Anyhow after many failures I still have the hope than someday I will ignore her and she will remember me.Even wrote a small piece of shayari about that long back but was never able to put that into practice.Guess the free time I've got inthis holidays is playing the spoil-sport.Just waiting for college to start so that I get busy with other things.As they say empty mind is a home to devil's workshop.
This day i.e. 26th June 2010 I've decided that I will straight away ignore her no matter what it takes for one whole month i.e. till 26th July 2010.This time it is serious because I have swore on my mother.So just wait and watch the play and what has to happen will happen.Will be back here anytime to update on this ongoing fire.Trying to divert my mind towards other things but...lets just wait and watch..Help me God(if he exists).