Beasts

Lol...what fun it was..New year was really good.Spent the new year's eve with an old childhood school friend.His name is Sai Praveen.Met him after 7 months.He came to my home and we chatted non-stop for 2 hours.Then he left at around 7 pm and then there was a small party at home.Later in the night I saw two movies back to back.Alice in wonderland and New Moon.I am watching a lot of movies as suggested by Amar.I am feeling good while watching them but need to be careful about the explicit content in some of them which may pose danger if my parents get to watch.Especially the Pie series.Other recent movies were Casino Royale and Shutter Island.Both were good.SI was really like a thriller kid of a movie.You keep guessing what's gonna happen next.Then there is this novel called Theodore Boone which is calling me but I am not finding time to open it.Life is passing so swiftly and I feel like I am wasting it a lot.Hari was at home yesterday for Tees Maar Khan songs.We had a discussion whether friendship really lasts forever or not.Ofcourse both of had the same opinion that it won't.Friendship kontha kalame bagutundi..lol...But that's true.Are you game to debate? And yeah 31st night my friends were at door at 2:00 am as I was almost asleep.My mom got shocked seeing them.Four of them came and ate cakes and biryani.Rakesh again did all funny stuff.We had fun and finally we slept at 5:00 am in my room.Woke up at 9:00 and they left.

Got a message from Santosh today with whom I had a nasty fight and we wacked each other up during intermediate.He said he wanted to meet me.I agreed and we are going to meet tomorrow at his college.Now that's called friendship.I am going to see him after almost 3 years.

Amar messaged just now and venkatesh yesterday.Nobody's going to college.Pranesh called and spoke for around half-an-hour.Ramcharan told he went to Tamilnadu.

Today evening we took Bunny to the Vet and I was amused to see fucking huge dogs there.A german shepherd was almost 6 feet and ferocious.The pug was which I loved a lot.Our bunny was scared hearing those dogs bark.Cool day...

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Memento

Really I wish I could forget you and move on but I understood that it is not possible.You will not understand my pain because the reason for the pain is the absence of you.I curse myself every time I think of you but it happens again the very next breath I take.I understood that your thoughts are directly proportional to the number of breaths I take.I miss you like I have lost a part of me.A part of me that always will remain with you until you come and give my soul peace.A part of me is lost.Oh girl why did you just leave me alone.Why do I love you even though you call me a dog?Why baby?The very second I wake up I hear my mind saying your name and again I curse myself for thinking of you even though you left me alone to walk in the dark,lonely path with tears of blood in my heart.I feel so void as if I have lost my soul.I don't feel you as some other person but like a part of me which is no more mine.Whatever I do feels incomplete without sharing them with you.Oh baby.Friends say you don't deserve me.They say why do you cry for her who doesn't love you.But only if someone experiences this feeling they'll know how helpless inspite of all the friends,family and books.It's killing me inside slowly.Why did destiny made us to meet and then wants us to separate forever?I didn't know anything about you.I still remember the day.I saw you and wanted you the next second.I remember.....everything and I cry.....why did I even see you....why did we meet.. now separation.I tried from 3 years for you.First I tried to follow...then i tried to propose...then there was a break...again I tried to contact you...and i proposed this time only to know that you were already committed.I kind of didn't believe and a year passed by.2010 it was.you,me and yes him.Now this new year all I am left with is a broken heart and an incomplete soul.I cry not because you left me ...but because you didn't love me... all I did was loved you.. happiness becomes pain... once you said that you love me..I remember...that day was the best day in this one year...you said that from your heart...i was heaven baby...I was out of my mind...But you never felt the same way when I say those words to you.I truly loved only one girl and that was you ...but it just didn't work out and i am not unhappy for that...I am unhappy because I lost a part of me...a part of me which just doesn't feel complete without you...that part haunts me like a ghost...sucks my blood like a Vampire...kills me like a wolf..every hour...every minute...To this day whenever I see or hear or imagine your name...I feel something which can't be explained...something supernatural....baby... all I did was spoke my heart out because life is unpredictable and small.You only have around 25 years to fall in love..and when someone made me feel so special I didn't want to hide anything...Life is so small....I regret having proposed to you...fuck...you just slipped way from my hand...fuck....If I knew last time we met was really the last time...at that bloody Bigbazaar....I would have hugged you and never left you ...never ever... :( fuck...