Mind Control

I guess I had a good control over my mind until this happened,if you know what I mean.Of course one of the obsessions that is almost beyond control.Don't know whether we should call that love or something else but 'that' thing is screwing me a lot these days.I've lost control on my mind and doing all things to try taking control on myself but it is getting hard.So what I've thought is to just let it go.I read somewhere that you must just let go something you really like.If it is yours it will surely come to you or else it never was.But actions are harder than words.
Anyhow after many failures I still have the hope than someday I will ignore her and she will remember me.Even wrote a small piece of shayari about that long back but was never able to put that into practice.Guess the free time I've got inthis holidays is playing the spoil-sport.Just waiting for college to start so that I get busy with other things.As they say empty mind is a home to devil's workshop.
This day i.e. 26th June 2010 I've decided that I will straight away ignore her no matter what it takes for one whole month i.e. till 26th July 2010.This time it is serious because I have swore on my mother.So just wait and watch the play and what has to happen will happen.Will be back here anytime to update on this ongoing fire.Trying to divert my mind towards other things but...lets just wait and watch..Help me God(if he exists).

Have the balls?

What brought me here back is the ongoing FIFA fever all over the globe.Well,basically I am not a Football maniac so kindly excuse my ignorance if any.If cricket is a religion in India then Football is life to millions of fans across the world.This time I vow not to miss any of the games because even I want to get a taste of the wine.My heart says that I am with Spain also called 'The Red Fury'.The red jersey is quite appealing much like the red tomatoes. Players like Cesc Fabregas,Xavi & Fernando Torres is the reason I'm with them.The super goalkeeper Iker Casillas is one to be watched out for.Spain may not be the favorites but we cannot predict what will happen in the end.Spain has a strong side and with the Euro 2008 title they are definitely among the hopefuls.
This test-of-the-balls will test which players tricks will lead to their football immortality.The winning team celebrating with the world cup will certainly be a feast for the eyes but supporting your team against all odds is what we will do.Though Messi isn't physically impressive,the Maradona-Messi magic can turn the tables around at any time.And who can forget Cristiano Ronaldo and his dazzling control over the ball.He was on the top only to be replaced by Messi.He earns not only from the sport but also endorsements.Will his entire lifetime be enough to spend the money?Don't think so.Will be missing David Beckham because of the injury.
I don't want to write more because this is my first-time fever and hope many other amateurs will also join this great month-long magic.Hoping for a great holiday ahead..

I love bandhs

hmm...there was nothing that i did today.There was a 48 hr bandh declared in the city because a student named Venugopal had committed suicide.He was supposedly depressed due to the delay in declaration of the separate Telangana state.But what the fuck did he achieve by commiting suicide.I hate such losers who feel their sacrifice will not go waste.Now what did he contribute by taking the step.Atleast a goat sacrificed would satisfy the tongues of some people.But his sacrifice has no value whatsoever except the fact that the government may give some bloody money to the family.But that's not what the family deserved.Anyway better enjoy the holidays rather then talking about this crap.
So,my day started at around 8:00am.I was just lazying around in the house.There was nothing much I could do.Spent some time on the internet and had breakfast.Then saw a part of the film 'Bone Eater' on HBO.Shortly I had lunch which was spinach dal and raw banana with rice.Then I had a nap because of the heavy meal.Woke up at aroung 4:00pm and had tea.I love tea.Then there was this novel 'Two states' which I started from where I had left.A good read.And then after a couple of hours I had my dinner and now I am here sitting in front of the glaring monitor and typing some useless things to satisfy my fingers.
Good bye..should enjoy my holidays.They don't come like these every now and then,you know.May be I'm etting fat.

Supplies start..finally

Hi,so I'm here the second time and this time I am writing about my day.Well it was a normal day.Woke up at 5:30 am to the alarm and experienced some cool shocks down my body due to the cold weather.After all the daily morning routine I had breakfast and got a call from Amar asking to inform him when the bus arrived at my stop.I said okay without realizing that I had no balance to contact him again.Then I left for college.
These days I have developed a strong dislike for my college and the stream I am into.So I am ignoring academic books and grabbing novels so that atleast I learn something.The first year supplementary exams were to begin from today,so students were busy preparing for it,many in the unofficial way.Many,or atleast me,were not interested to attend the classes.So I joined my friends to bunk the entire day and spend in the best possible bunking spot in college,which was our college bus.The guys who flunked in the first subject,A.P,were busy preparing and getting some were getting tutored.Luckily I was not.My supply was on 30th.So,It meant still lot of time for me.

Hello

This is my first try at writing something about myself.I'm here so that I can organize things in my life in a better way so that it would be meaningful to share something with the world.Well I don't know what to write about here,so let me start with a topic that interests me and which is in contrast to the topics I get to listen in my college.It is about life,the essence of this world.

Instead of looking for the meaning of life it would be better to look for a meaningful life.Who are you.What do you want.What are your surroundings.I am not trying to be a philosopher here,but just sharing something what I feel and I welcome criticism.I feel the need for leading a meaningful life is better than living a life which has no meaning.Just the routine work,food,sleep is not meaningful life,although it is indeed life which even plants and animals have.But,we are human,a developed species of animal which has the capability to do something off routine.

Taking the right decisions at the correct point of life can make you something meaningful.So we first need to know who we are and what do we want.Once we have the answer for that at an early stage life becomes easy for us.But this is the question that trick many.What do I want?I still do not have the answer for this.That is why I am here in this crap engineering college,that too in ECE doing nothing good.I feel like an alien in this world because this is not what I want,yet,I don't know what I want.Can anybody tell what a person should do at such a situation.This is where fate and destiny come into the minds of some people.But,I am no believer of such crap.Life takes you where you want to go.If you are in the wrong bus ofcourse you will reach the wrong station won't you?You can't expect to board the train to Chennai and hope that fate takes you to Delhi.